Anniversaries To Take Stock of

In spite of a wicked sad economy I can't help but feel gratitude about so many gifts I have been given this past year. Ironically this Valentine's day celebrates my last day of radiation treatment one year ago to the day. So, officially I am in remission for one solid year. I count myself so fortunate as through my experience I have met many, many wonderful woman who have not been as fortunate as me. My "Writing Through Cancer group at Scripps Hospital provided a safe haven for me to express my fears, sadness, and to work through the losses I experienced this last year. Writing has also helped me find the voice to celebrate the gains as well. "Without lemons there can be no lemonade!

This November was my Mothers Birthday and January 24Th was the one year anniversary of her passing. This year was the first time ever my family did not come together as one for the holidays. I was dreading the holidays this year. My heart ached simply imagining sitting down for Christmas dinner and looking across the table only to miss watching my Mom sneak a taste of the mashed potatoes before grace in her mischievous way.

Lemonade....I made every minute count. I stayed fully engaged with every member of my family as if I may never have this moment again, because life can turn on a dime, in 24 short hours life can continue as you know longer recognize it.

Everything is different now. My body is forever altered, but more importantly so is my heart. I have been blessed with seeing the best in everybody, I have amazing friends, neighbors, co-workers which really fall into the friends category. I had and continue to receive excellent medical care. Forget about the whys, the how comes, etc etc. Just embrace the what is and may be surprised, delightfully so!

I am going to make every effort not to allow myself to become swept up in the negative media blitz about the state of our economy, our world, etc, I am however going to be mindful of those who are affected and continue to practice gratitude for all I have and to face every challenge with humility and gratitude.